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Lost in the Shadows

Darkness Calls

Wesley Wyndham-Price
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Abandoned and Alone - Bio taken from http://www.yeswes.com/wesfiles/index.html - I like the dark, angst-filled, miserable version of Wesley best. So I'll be picking up playing him after season 3 of Angel, only in this version, he leaves LA.

This section marks the beginning of the darkest period in Wesley's life. Having finally found a place he felt he belonged, friends who respected him, and a family that cared about him, he has lost them all. He is cut off by his friends and must come to terms with being alone and determine the new direction of his life.

After Holtz attacks the hotel ("Sleep Tight"), Angel, Fred and Gunn learn from Lorne that Wesley had planned to take the baby and disappear. He also tells them that Wesley met with Holtz behind their backs, but he does not know why he did these things. Angel's anger toward Wesley does not seem to dissipate even when Gunn and Fred try to reason with him. They can't believe Wesley could do such a thing. Angel leaves in search of Holtz and his son, and Gunn and Fred set out to find Wesley before Angel does. Angel is unable to prevent Holtz from leaping with Connor through a portal into a hell dimension opened by the time-traveling demon Sahjahn.

In the meantime ("Forgiving"), Wesley is lying on the ground just yards from his apartment building, bleeding to death from the gash in his throat delivered by Justine. Obscured in the darkness and the trees, he remains unseen by Fred and Gunn when they arrive at his apartment and later when they leave. He is found, however, by a vagrant who sounds sympathetic, but relieves him of his wallet, then drags him behind a bush. Later, when Angel, Fred and Gunn return to search for him after Justine has confessed what happened, they cannot find him. In spite of his obvious rage and despondency over losing his son, Angel seems to be genuinely concerned that Wesley might be dead.

Somehow, by means not revealed, Wesley does make it to a hospital where he is later located by Fred and Gunn. They notify Lorne and Angel. When Angel arrives at the hospital, they tell him Wesley is still not out of danger and that he can't speak because of the injury to his throat.

Angel appears to have calmed down as he enters Wesley's hospital room. He speaks quietly, reassuring Wesley that he isn't Angelus, but Angel. Once he's certain Wesley understands this, he suddenly lunges at the defenseless man, grabbing the pillow from beneath his head and pressing it down over his face. The alarm is raised and Gunn along with several orderlies manage to pull Angel off Wesley and drag him from the room as he shouts to Wes that he's a dead man.

In the aftermath of the attack, Gunn seems to have changed his mind about defending Wesley. Only Fred (and surprisingly Lorne who Wesley had assaulted in his get away) seem sympathetic, but all of them have chosen to side with Angel. The vampire himself has shut himself away in his room to grieve over an empty crib.

Wesley, lying alone in the hospital, is visited by Fred ("Double or Nothing"), who has packed up all his belongings from his office at the hotel and brings the box to him. Wes is still unable to speak as Fred talks to him. She tells him they know why he did what he did, but that he was wrong not to trust them. Her sympathetic tone turns to anger and before she leaves, she tells him not to ever come back to the hotel and reveals that the prophecy that drove him to his actions was a fake.

Later when Wesley is released from the hospital, he returns alone to his dark and silent apartment, the box of his belongings in his arms.

There is no contact between any of the AI team and Wesley following his release from the hospital. Even when Cordelia returns, she shows no interest in even discussing Wesley, contacting him or trying to find out from him why he did what he did. Everyone focuses their attentions on Angel. But when the hotel is invaded by slug-like creatures that made their way through a portal in the Hyperion's lobby ("The Price"), Fred is infected and no one knows how to save her. Gunn shows up at Wes' door, belligerently telling him that he doesn't want to be there and has no interest in what Wes has to say, but that he needs his help to save Fred's life.

Wesley's voice is still hoarse as he bitterly replies to Gunn, reminding him that he too almost died and telling him that the only thing that kept him alive was the desire to explain what happened to his friends. Gunn again makes it clear that they don't want an explanation. Wes agrees to help save Fred, but tells Gunn never to come to him again.

The news of what occurred at the hospital has made it's way to Wolfram & Hart and Wesley receives an unexpected visit from Lilah Morgan ("A New World"). He quickly realizes her motives are to use him for the information he possesses about Angel and the team. She basically admits that Wolfram & Hart would appreciate his knowledge and offers him a gift: a copy of Dante's Inferno. She alludes to the ninth circle of hell, a place reserved for those who betray, and not so subtly draws a comparison between Wesley and Judas Iscariot. Wesley refuses to accept her offer, but it is clear that her taunting has struck home. Later, he considers the illustrations in the book as he sits alone in his apartment.

The most fascinating aspect of this visit is seductive manner of Lilah's derision. She doesn't try and hide her motives, but attempts to use Wesley's own self-loathing to show him that he belongs with her kind. For his part, Wesley clearly understands what she's trying to accomplish, but is struggling with his own view of himself.

Lilah, it seems, has just begun her campaign to appeal to Wesley's dark side. She anonymously e-mails him an invitation to a nightclub ("Benediction") and when he arrives, she reveals to him that she has arranged for Justine, the woman who tried to kill him, to be lured into a trap. She is offering him a ringside seat to Justine's death. When he starts to walk away, she wonders if he'll simply leave or stop to warn Justine. Without giving him time to consider for himself what he would do, she tells him she will save him the decision and see that Justine isn't harmed. The purpose of this "test" was simply to see if Wesley would hesitate, and she points out that he did.

Before Lilah can follow through with her promise to save Justine, Wesley notes Angel's arrival at the club. He is accompanied by a young man and the two of them begin to fight with the vampires who were about to attack Justine. Lilah doesn't know who Angel's companion is, but Wesley does: Connor, now returned from the Quortoth and fighting along side his father. While Lilah watches the fight, Wesley quietly leaves, and she begins to realize there's more to this little game of hers than she first thought.

While Angel deals with the return of his son, Wesley still remains alone... except for Lilah. Once again, she pays him a visit, this time catching up with him in a pub ("Tomorrow"). By now, the tone of their encounters has been well established, characterized by biting sarcasm with an undertone of sensuality. She asks if he'd mind if she joined him. He replies, "On many levels and with great intensity." (This line is a pretty good summation of the way these two relate to each other.) This time, she tries to use Connor to get under Wesley's skin, implying that if Connor actually proved to be dangerous, Wes' former friends wouldn't be prepared to handle it. She wonders if Wesley would be prepared to kill him, in spite of the fact that he was Angel's son? She twists the knife by implying that Connor might harm Fred, and says she's glad she doesn't have a conscience. Wesley remains silent, but then she goes one step too far, asking what it felt like when Justine slit his throat. Wes reacts by grabbing her by the throat and asking if she really wants to know.

When next we see them, it's in Wesley's bed moments after they have had sex. Wes' reaction is shockingly cold, making it clear that he has no interest in her beyond satisfying his physical desires. Lilah counters his coldness with her sharp-edged taunting, telling him not to think about her after she's gone. Wesley's reply, "I wasn't thinking about you when you were here," actually seems to hit a nerve, and for the first time, we see an indication that Lilah has, to some degree, fallen victim of her own plot. Wesley has managed to get under her skin.

At the end of Season 3, things have, indeed, fallen apart. Angel has been locked in a box and dropped to the bottom of the ocean by his own son, Cordelia slowly rises to her new role as a higher being, Gunn and Fred are left alone at the hotel wondering what's happened to everyone, and Wesley, the outcast, is left alone with his own dark thoughts. Thoughts that are known only to him.

This is a role play journal for the character Wesley Wyndham-Price from the very popular, yet cancelled television show, Angel, the series. I am not Alexis Denisof or am affiliated with the defunct show. I am but a bit of flotsom within the world wide web and have acquired not a dime from anything that I write with regards to this journal. It is just a place where one of my many muses find liberty and freedom to play.